I Do Not Exist

8 September 2007

Someone is texting you repeatedly with the same unsigned message, at all times day and night. It says simply:

I DO NOT EXIST

If you ignore the message it still comes again. If you reply there's no direct or consequent response. Invariably though, at some point, minutes, hours or, on some occasions days later, the same message just comes again. It keeps coming.

I DO NOT EXIST
I DO NOT EXIST

This goes on for a month or two, maybe longer. It's freaky at first but you get used to it somehow and adjust your routine to take account of what's happening. You turn my phone off at night and in the morning collect streams of identical texts. You check your phone only sporadically, tell friends not to text you because it only leads to confusion as real messages are so often obscured by the deluge. You consider changing numbers, and find yourself involved in long complicated conversations about if its possible or not to block communications from particular places.

I DO NOT EXIST
I DO NOT EXIST
I DO NOT EXIST
I DO NOT EXIST

A few times you even call the number from which the messages are emanating and which you don't recognise at all. But on calling it you just get some kind of number-error message. No voicemail, not even a ring, like this number is itself a phantom, something cancelled, something impossible.

Your phone beeps, or trills or clicks. You check the message:

I DO NOT EXIST